Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom,

I never tripped over toys

or forgot words to a lullaby

I didn’t worry whether or not

my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never been puked on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a screaming child so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots..

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got so gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby just because i didn’t want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when i couldn’t stop the hurt.

I never knew that  something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that i could love someone so much.

I never knew that i would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,

I never knew the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn’t know that bond between a mother and a child.

I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was ok.

I had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the love,

the heartache,

the wonderment

or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn’t know i was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

(Borrowed from a friend’s blog at http://java-joy.blogspot.com to express my feeling “before I was a Mom”)